Archives for category: Between IVFs (2)


As I have mentioned, I have been awaiting my period starting this month as it means I can check in for IVF cycle three (second thaw cycle using a frozen embryo).

Hurray, it started early evening yesterday.  I was ever so pleased, I’m keen to have another go and get going.

The first step of the cycle is to ring the clinic and get an appointment within the next few days to go in for a pre-treatment scan and make arrangements for when the drugs start (day 21).

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I had my infertility counselling session today, as usual notable for being an inconvenient half day out of the office due to being mid morning and more than an hour away from my house. Which is an even worse journey during Edinburgh Festival Fringe time.

Second time with the legend that is my new counsellor. I was glad to see her again as my existing counsellor is winding down to a bit of time off work, plus the new counsellor has in one session totally sorted my head out around my feelings of failure and I’ve not felt so good in a long time.

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This weekend I’ve been away at the Rewind 80s music festival.  I went completely off-grid for four days.  It was awesome.  I’ve been glad to have this in my diary to look forward to and that has helped me stay positive and get through the last negative result and get on with normal life.

I am finding things fine at the moment and am expecting to be able to check in for my next cycle within the week.

But I’m not one for counting my blessings.  Sorry, it’s not my way. 

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I was pulled up on stage at an Edinburgh Festival Fringe event today, to take part in a silly game.  Which I won.  Hurrah!  But in front of everyone, before the game started, the performer asked ‘are any of you pregnant?’  And I of course had to say no.

There’s no getting away from my lack of pregnancy.

It is a very public thing.

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Yeah don’t even get me started on how this letter is marked ‘Strictly private and confidential to be opened by addressee only’ and was sent to me and not my husband… A couple of weeks after the event it confirmed what we knew from two negative pregnancy tests and me getting my period.

We’re in limbo again. Not much to report. On the plus side I can have a few beers, exercise, eat McDonalds, er… bleach my teeth. It’s not so bad, we don’t have to wait too long and as it is Edinburgh Festival Fringe time I can happily have some fun and get on with things for a bit. I’ve been feeling a bit sick which seems to be easing off now but I’ve not got my libido back. This is annoying. But as the sickness is going and I’m starting to show a bit of interest in attractive young comedians the husband thinks this may be related to my natural cycle resetting and my ovulation which is due around now.

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As my memory rests but never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends (Wake me up when September ends, American Idiot)

So my period has started. Yay! And I can start my next thaw cycle with my next period. So. As I’m usually regular, getting my period this month helps me to estimate when I can start up the third attempt at IVF.

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Don’t dream it, be it (Don’t dream it be it, The Rocky Horror Show)

Counselling today. I didn’t feel I ‘needed’ it, I’m coping fine with the negative pregnancy test result, but I suspect that some of the reason that I am coping is down to having had this appointment in place.

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A bit from the husband today…

“I haven’t written anything for BabyMaybe for a while. My wife is so eloquent, and so thorough, it doesn’t leave me a lot to say. There are some things though that I should try to share.

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